cathy612 的个人博客

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很久没有上过blog了 之前都是偶尔从space link过来看看之前自己写的东西...然后发现自己写了好多日记都隐藏起来 又然后觉得很多事情已经时过境迁又把日志调成显示 之后又觉得别人看到不好又隐藏 来来去去好几回 最后其实谁都已经忘记了这个地方..很多时候心情不好都去雨后写一写 然后看看 

i should rlly hv broke out but i didnt..and now..i gotta say sth..i dunno wth u've been told. the only thing is dat i didnt do anything wrong that day..the reason i dun wanna explain is that the relationship has already broken.like they said..i dun deserve this.i deserve much better..so im no longer anything to this fu*kin trouble things..listen to whoever u wat..do watever u like..think as long as u can imagine..im just so disppointed..they said misunderstanding should hv been involved..nvm..i wont care about this anymore..

im just so freakin out..srry to worry u guys..and again..thx rlly..K .Sing  and Barbie. thx for being so nice to me..

It's been a long long time since my last visit. It should be about half a year, right? Yeah, seems people are now getting to forget here and some other places for sure.

So? So what? It's boring when the holiday finally comes. Feel released of cause. Then visa is still in process which freeze everything. Shopping. ya really big issue regarding shopping. with whom? for what? all are killing the brain cells!

However, things are much different now! None is like the past. I should go over them by myself. yes truly and honestly. So, and my FAMILY, for these years, builing to 5 and reduce to 4 again. all man should go through this and so, clam down, get back to the original way and accept the fact!

Whoo! Time for some changes! So the fight is almostly confirmed and visa interview will be right next Thur. btw, wish me good luck! 

The grad.party is really awesome except the buffet! So last but not the least, its fabulous to have you guys accompany! Love you all~ 

每天走在学校和宿舍之间.还有三天就要考试了.其实心里真的挺怕的.感觉可能都不能考得比上次高.可是.偏偏就是要去考.就是不得不去考.已经两周了.除了发疯什么都不会.一天到晚就在那里哭天喊地的..自己都很讨厌这个样子.

下周一去上海.听说不知道广交会还是什么会得24号开帘卷西风幕.机票贵的回不来.有几个人不愿意坐火车.所以大家决定要在上海多留一天.这样本来很无聊的面试都变成了4天的短程旅行.其实我觉得很不值得.虽然也很喜欢上海.有个想法.去上海某个地方混一晚上.可以顺便省一晚上的酒店钱.其实我都还不知道延安路到底在什么地方.估计也没有人愿意跟我一起干这种白痴的事情..sunnie和penny都是乖乖女阿.我一个女的也不能上哪去.忙得除了给钱真的什么都不想管.

想好好的回学校上课.把落下来的课都补起来.不想再被语言考试折磨了.那本新买的delta注定是做不完的了.不想再考了.觉得真没意思.不高就不高吧.95就95吧.觉得是真的累了.也不想为了那个凤毛麟角的东西再争来争去了.

一直都不敢在正常的时间里出现在学校.见到那些其他部的部长和副主人比黄花瘦席就开溜.宣玉枕纱厨传部一片混乱.周四还有歌手大赛.现在分身都不够用.可是.我真的只是想做做那些自己喜欢的事情.下周我想去看小玉了.然后又要开始新一轮的考试了.

真的.很麻烦,很头疼.总是让你没有办法静下心来好好想想周围的人和事.总是觉得很浪费时间.总是觉得时间应该花在复习上.可是.总是效率很低.总是觉得很黑暗.

想起一个人写的字.另一个人说的话.第三个人做的事.我没有勇气.没有必有.并且觉得不值得.所以一定告诉自己.好好的过完这个星期.一切都会好起来的.在日记本上写的字都化开了.今天已经星期二了.晚上失眠早上想赖床.精神恍惚.不断被电脑辐射.没有状态.也不知道自己究竟在干什么.你知道么?也不知道吧.

宿舍外面两个女生在说SAT冲一千八的事情.我不明白.其实我一直挺鄙视不自量力的人.今天升学办公室里听到有个人一千八都没有还想报好学校..真是脑子进水了.另某人更猛.凭着跟剑桥教授的关系.5.5的雅思成绩.居然用推荐信都拿到了面试邀请.还说想ED stanford.然后我走过去很不给面子的给他说.那学校16篇essay.一天一篇都赶不及deadline.然后他才说.是么.

哎.我去看书了.练口语了.真的要完蛋了!

nao zi bu zhuan le . chu le ku, shen me dou bu dong le .
yi bian ku yi bian kan shu, yi bian ku yi bian tian shen qing biao.
shei gei wo de jia you dou xian de hen wu li le.
yi pian kong bai. yi pian kong bai.
wo shi da ben dan , da ben dan. shen me dou bu shi de da ben dan..

wo ..kai shi you dian lei le..
xiang ..ding xia lai le.
ke yi .zhan shi wang le zhe xie me.
ni..hai zai me..
neng bu neng ..shei ta qu le.

am I oversensitive?
feeling miserable..

我不喜欢这样。但是。我忍。我做。我忍！！！我做！！！蓝！！！:- ) 我还想过更好的生活。再大不了的事。咬咬牙就过了。

我打的字.又没了...上天要是不让我骂那个烂人.不让我骂那些我看不顺眼的人.我忍了.

可是.还在身边的这些人.可以体谅我么?我觉得委屈觉得难过. 我不想对着爸爸吼的对不起.